Finally Finished

I am now officially done with Fall Quarter. I have taken all my tests and said my goodbyes to the campus (I walked around talking quietly to myself, saying things like, "Farewell sweet prince! Parting is such sweet sorrow!"). Thankfully, no was around to hear me talking to myself, well almost no one. Majority of the campus is empty. How I will miss Fall Quarter. My seemingly pointless J101 class with its many guest speakers, adieu! My awesome J133 grammar-tastic class and my awesome Word Geek partner Matt, so long! My Japnese class filled with fun times, farewell! And my POLS150 with its global warming propaganda, I bid you good day! Goodbye and good break to all my new friends! And a solemn, possibly forever farewell to Ian and Frank who put smiles on my face every J101 and POLS150 class with their constant questions and opinions trying to sound smart! Oh OU, I hardly knew ye! Yet do not fret, for January is quick to come, and soon will I return home!

Farewell Fall Quarter!

Adieu to you Fall Quarter at Ohio U. Tomorrow, I shall return home for six weeks of winter break. While I look forward to this return to friends and family, I will also dearly miss the relaxing atmosphere of OU's campus. How I will miss sitting in The Post lobby eating my Creamy Tomato Tortellini soup from West 82! How I will miss my twice-weekly Photo meetings and my Tuesday Culture staff meetings! How I will miss Fridays Live, David's complaining about Fridays Live, the drunken parties of Fridays Live! Oh how I shall miss it all dearly for six weeks! But I will not be departing from it forever. I wish I could bring all my friends here though. I would stay and take some winter intercession classes, but I think I'd rather go home my freshmen year.

Let it Snow, Let it Snow, Let it Snow!

It started snowing again. This time it's a substantial snow. It's wonderful and oh so beautiful. I walked to pick up some food, and it felt so nice. The feeling of snow on my skin. I feel so alive. It's so strange how much snow affects me. I never used to enjoy snow so much. I guess it's been the opening of my eyes to the wonders of life that started I think around the summer after junior year. It's probably because I took photography. Having never had an actual art class before, I think photography opened my eyes to the beauty around me. Capturing it on film is what started to awaken something deep inside me. I can't wait to get home so I can take some awesome film photos and then develop them.

Snow Makes Everything Right

Forget my last post completely. Today, right now, it is snowing ever so beautifully in Athens. Before going to my J101 final, I could see an occasional flake float down. After finishing my J101 final, I exited to find a light snow falling ever so beautifully. I've been using "ever so" a lot recently. Something about snow just makes me happy now. I have always loved the snow, but for some unknown reason, it just made me so happy to see it today. I've been told it snows in Athens, but it's usually a more rainy/slushy snow and doesn't last long. It mainly just creates a frost effect. That's okay with me, but I do prefer the heavy blanket snows of Euclid. Regardless, my favourite part of snow is watching it fall. Whether it falls fast, heavy and blindingly, or ever so slowly and lightly, I love watching it fall. I keeping taking a few seconds to watch it fall outside my dorm room window. Just now I checked outside, and it has, unfortunately, stopped snowing. Oh, well... Good things are often fleeting...

End of Fall Quarter

Well, it's already over. I can't believe how fast my first ten weeks at OU have gone by. I've made so many friends, and yet I haven't really. I've become friends with a lot of people, but I haven't really hung out with them or anything. I really miss my other friends. It's going to be like when I first came to Euclid, how I didn't do anything with anyone I had met that year. I didn't do anything with anyone until tenth grade, and even then I did little with my new friends. I love meeting new people and making new friends, but I hate how long it takes for other people to want to do stuff with me. I feel so out of place, but then I feel like I belong here. At first this didn't really bother me as I had some friends from high school to hang out with, but then they distanced. I still had some friends from high school that weren't in my graduating class that I did stuff with, but as time went on I began to feel so distant from everyone. I felt so out of place, lost in some foreign world, far away from where I wanted to be. It's not that I'm out of place, it's just that I have really close friends who aren't close physically to me. On top of that, I feel this need to find someone. I really want to get into an intimate relationship with someone, but I often reach for forbidden fruit and find possible matches in already taken women. Other times I realise they don't meet my standards. A friend once told me that I'm one in 6.7 billion. That doesn't give me much hope for finding someone to truly open myself up to. But the worst part of it all, I've been thinking about death a lot lately. I've been reading and listening to music a lot more, and I've been finding ways to start thinking about death in almost everything I hear or read. In J101 one day, we were watching a documentary on the beginning of the Civil Rights movement. It said that the murder of a young black boy was the impetus. This made me start thinking about my own mortality. I nearly had a panic attack. A chill went down my spine, my heart started beating really fast, and I was almost in tears as I worried to myself about being murdered and there being nothing after this life. I was able to calm myself down, but it was terrible. I've started losing sleep over it, and then yesterday I slept all day because I didn't want to get out of bed. I'm not stressed or mental, I just happened to reach the climax of my existential crisis as soon as I started college. I'm just worried I might go to sleep and not wake up one day. People have told me there's no need to fear dying because once you're dead, you're gone and don't care. That's what freaks me out the most, is that lose of thought/consciousness/self/existence. As Hamlet said, "For in that sleep of death what dreams may come?"

Hurrah for the World!

Hurrah for the United States of America! Hurrah for the people of the United States of America! I have lived through, as have all of you, a defining moment in the history of the world. We who have voted have elected Barack Obama as the 44th president of the United States of America. I was unable to express my joy as I was in the midst of Athens County Republicans. As a journalist/photojournalist, I am unable to show bias. I had to hold it all in. It was so hard that I actually starting feeling like it wasn't really happening. As I listened to the Republicans around me, I realized it was real and just laughed at their stupid comments about socialism, Bill Heirs, terrorism, etc. (inside of course). I wanted very hard to laugh at the Republicans as they said things like where has our country gone. I only worry that intolerance is still strong and that many believe "the blacks will take over." The ignorance people have about Obama's ethnicity and what socialism really is just angers me. If they do not want to support their president, then they can leave this country. I am just happy it is over and the Messiah has won.